Today was Valentine’s Day and I had a lovely time. I spent the day with my children. We spoiled each other and had some nice family time. I’m going to bed overwhelmed though. Not a good overwhelmed. The kind that makes you want to smash your phone into little pieces. You see, as much as I love my kids, I also feel the need to escape into my little world of social media periodically throughout the day. But lately, I’ve realised just how much I’m checking it on my phone and it’s frustrating me. Social media has become a bad habit. One, I’d like to cut back on.
I’m going to bed feeling slightly anxious wound up, over things I’ve read online (Twitter), written by people I don’t even know, which makes no sense. I should be spending time with my kids, not putting my nose in my phone and getting into debates about politics or the rights and wrongs of the worlds. I should be going to bed earlier and happier. I’ve focused too much on the negatives today and I’m not enjoying how it’s left me feeling. Bad energy before bedtime, is never good.
It’s not just Twitter debates. It’s also how often I check my phone, it’s how often I refresh Instagram, it’s how often I post to my story on Instagram, it’s how often I’m texting. Sometimes, it all just becomes too overwhelming.
So to turn it all around, I’ve decided to try to cut down my social media time dramatically! I want it to be where I’m only checking it around 4-5 times per day. (I check it WAY more than that). I’ve also decided that I’m not going to get into debates with strangers about politics. I’m not even going to read what is posted. Twitter is specifically there for my blog and to connect with other bloggers, and I’m going to keep it that way. The blogging world is generally a positive place to be and I’ll be happy to stay there. Anything else, doesn’t matter to me right now. I’m also going to start turning my phone off every day when my daughter get’s home from school. I’ve already started turning Do Not Disturb on, and also switching to Airplane Mode on my phone at night so when I wake up in the night to feed the baby, I’m not bombarded with messages.
Essentially, I just want some peace and quiet each day. I feel like my head is banging right now. I feel deflated and I need to take a step back from it all. It will be good for my mental health and my ability to handle things in day to day life. I also want to be more aware of what is going on in my present life, rather than be so involved in other people’s lives. This year is about my kids and myself and nobody else so it’s time to start making it about that. Social media can wait. It’s not good for me. It’s not good for anyone really is it? We are all so concerned about who’s posted what and what’s going on in each other’s lives when really the life we should be focusing on is our own! I know myself, I could get a lot more done in a day if I just put my freakin’ phone down!!!
So with all this being said, if you send me a message or a comment or follow me on something and I don’t respond right away, I will get back to you, especially if it’s blog related. It just might take a bit longer.
To end this post on a more positive note. I hope everyone had a good Valentine’s Day. My babies got me some makeup by Elf including a nice lipstick duo that I’m excited to try out. I really enjoyed spending time with them. It was my Abigail’s 1st Valentine’s Day and she got so much love off her brother and sister. I love my little monsters, I’m so lucky 🙂
Thank you for reading.